Astronaut Shares Depression In the Wake of Wave of Online Abuse After Historic Trip
A pioneering space traveler has publicly detailed her battle with depression after facing a “tsunami of harassment” in the aftermath of a landmark journey to the edge of space.
Amanda Nguyen – celebrated as a researcher and activist – was part of the 11-minute suborbital flight in the spring, which also carried well-known figures.
The much-publicized journey was met with derision by some, who challenged its value and carbon footprint.
Reflecting on the ordeal, the astronaut, who made history as the pioneer for her community, stated the vicious response overshadowed her achievement under an torrent of sexist abuse.
“I said the emotional pain might endure for years,” the astronaut shared in a public message, describing a supportive conversation from a fellow crew member in the aftermath of the flight.
She characterized the news reports and online discourse as an “onslaught no human brain has evolved to endure”.
“I did not leave Texas for a week, unable to get out of bed,” she wrote. “Even a month on, a phone call ended with me hanging up, weeping uncontrollably.”
Eclipsed by Backlash
The researcher, who has focused her career on gynecological science and performed experiments during the flight, said all her lifelong efforts – including her studies and astronaut training to the historic significance of her background – was overshadowed under the avalanche of misogyny.
She is most acclaimed for her tireless campaigning protecting the rights of survivors of assault.
Her own goal of reaching space was paused after surviving a rape during her university years, leading to a long campaign for accountability.
Finding Solid Ground
Now, eight months after reaching space, she noted the heaviest sorrow is beginning to clear, and she thanked the followers whose support were her lifeline. “You were my salvation,” she said.
She noted that amid the criticism, significant positive outcomes had come out of the mission, including increased focus on her scientific work and chances to influence leaders.
About the Mission
The fully automated spacecraft lifted off from Texas in the spring, carrying the six-woman crew on a 11-minute journey that exceeded the internationally recognized boundary of space.
The group of women also included leaders in multiple disciplines.
The company behind the mission is a commercial aerospace company established by a Amazon founder.
